Phone books
The response to the flu accompanied by elevated
pyrexia will forever bring along a strong motion of anxiety. It is when I begin to feel that I am on the
verge of the flu that my worry spikes.
Irrational or not, the trembling from my fever only increase with my
fear. The wave of illness crashes upon
my body, messing with my motor functions and altering my imagination. My body tells me to thrash and writhe with
each thought and image during my restless slumber. Then it
appears – the dreaded phone book.Simply minding my own business, my mother arrives, lashing out with distinct hand motions. She is shaking her finger at me, and her mouth is moving 100 miles an hour. I can’t seem to make out the words, though. It is evident that she is yelling, but it only comes out in a whisper. I tremble even more, fearful of what is to come. I look to my right. Phone books. Everywhere. I am then forced to eat it, bite after bite, without slowing down. As I open my mouth to engulf each and every bit of it, tears trickle down my face, and I am unable to find any mean of escape. Trapped in this irrational dream with this irrational fear, I snap awake. Sweat beads drip down my face, and the rest of my body is drenched with it.
Thankful that it was just my imagination, I take in a slight sigh of relief. However, I know that this won’t be the last time. Each time that I am greeted with the flu, I become submerged in this retched dream cycle. I will never be able to look at a phone book in the same way again.